I was on Spring Break with my family a couple of weeks in San Diego when I experienced this wonderful moment of clarity. Maybe it is because I am in my 40’s now. Maybe it is because I am now working with individuals who have lost loved ones and talk about how much the moments with their loved one mean now that they are gone. Or maybe it is because my children are growing and time is slipping fast. It is likely a combination of all of the above and more, but this trip was different than any other I have gone on.
My brother flew out to surprise our three boys (ages 13, 10 & 7) and two of my cousins, who are like brothers to me, live in San Diego. So I guess this also made the trip extra special. But there was a moment while I was sitting on the beach that I began to feel this overwhelming feeling of gratitude. I was watching my boys, husband and brother play in the ocean together. I sat there for a while just watching, tears swelling up in my eyes. I was so grateful to be sitting in that moment.
I’m not going to lie; up until about a year ago we had a rough year. Both my husband and I work very hard and all in one year some things came falling down on us. It was easy for me to go into pity party mode and feel like our world was ending. And it did feel like this. Are things perfect now? They are not. We still have struggles, but wow do I look at the world differently than I did during that year. I have grown so much as a mother and wife. It feels amazing.
I guess my purpose for this is to tell you that there is hope. That it is important to live in the moments that make you smile. Use all of your senses to enjoy them. While I was sitting on the beach I really took in how the sand felt beneath me, the smell of the ocean air, the laughter of my family, watching them play in the waves. In that moment of maybe only 5 minutes, I felt like my life had changed. I recognized fully that even though I don’t know what the future holds, I know that I have that moment. In times of despair, I can return to that moment by closing my eyes and reminiscing. I believe that it will always make me smile.
Take time to be in the moment. Don’t let this life slip by you without gratitude and happiness.