Confessions of a Personal Trainer

People ask me all the time, “how do you keep the motivation to workout regularly?” Three active boys, a husband, a dog and work do keep me very busy. If you ask my husband, he will tell you I HAVE to workout. Because I get really cranky when I don’t. I’ve been working out for as long as I can remember; so it does just feel like a natural part of my day. But to be honest, if I didn’t teach Group Fitness, I’m not sure I would still be as active as I am. I do still find the drive on my days off from teaching to get something in. I see the benefits when I get my workouts in. I’m not as cranky. I sleep better. I feel better about myself. It’s a pretty awesome feeling to have that part of my life under control.

I used to be an emotional eater. Any emotion led me to the fridge or pantry. I have found how to get this under control. And I promise you it took years, not days, to happen. So now that I have that under control (and I will talk about that in another blog in the near future), I now find myself needing to evaluate my diet for health reasons.

As some of you may know, I have an autoimmune disease and inflammation of my hands is a large issue for me. Moving from Minnesota to the warmer climate (Texas) has certainly helped tremendously. But I have not been able to wear my wedding ring since 2009, when I was diagnosed, because my fingers are so swollen all of the time.

I’m sure you have heard that those who suffer from autoimmune diseases often times have a food allergy that, if controlled, can help them reduce the pain and inflammation.

Insert my weakness here.

I’ve had many trial and errors attempting to remove gluten, dairy, processed sugar, you name it, from my diet. But just like many who are trying to lose weight, I would end up saying in a moment of weakness, “It’s not worth it. I really don’t mind where I’m at”. Until the next flare-up, where I have to start over again.

It was frustrating. I’ve helped many individuals conquer eating habits they wish to change, and yet I have a difficult time applying it to my own life. Lately my fingers don’t appear to even get a break from the swelling. So I’ve decided that it is essential that I make some changes in my diet. And I have to say that I’m excited about this; but I’m also fearful. Fearful that I may fail again.

If there is one thing I have learned over the years, though, it is that starting over is okay. I have moved into this part of my life where I have discovered self-forgiveness. And it is a beautiful thing.

So, I have decided to reach out to a sweet dietitian friend of mine for advice on how to go about this. She is going to guide me in the right direction and hold me accountable. I’m feeling nervous, excited, and proud. Proud of myself that I am setting aside what I think I knew about nutrition and trusting someone who is much more knowledgable and educated in the field.

I will, however, need to work on the mental aspect of all of this. I will need to learn to say “no” to things that are on my “do not eat” list. Even when no one is here to slap it out of my hand. I give others all the tools necessary to help them achieve this; I will now apply it to my own life, once again.

I felt the need to write this today because I want you to see that everyone struggles. That everyone needs help, guidance and direction; regardless of their background or experience. To accept that you have a problem and that you need help. To encourage you to reach out to someone when you need that help. To acknowledge you don’t know everything. It is a humbling experience. I hope that this little journal of mine helps you feel less alone with whatever you are working on at this time if your life.

So I ask you, who do you need to reach out to to better your life at this time?


2 thoughts on “Confessions of a Personal Trainer

  1. Thanks for this post. I continues to struggle with living a complete fit life. And like you, I know what I need to do. But lack to motivation to get the strength workouts in and I’ve slacked off on the healthy eating. Tomorrow is a new day, I will continue on the journey.

    1. That is absolutely right. When I have an off day (or even an off hour), I get right back on the horse and try again. That is all we can do. Being hard on ourselves only makes matters worse. So happy to hear you see how to make this happen!

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